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One of the main reasons I watch America’s Got Talent -besides it being a nice distraction while I ride my bike in the living room -Is Howie Mandel.
{The other nightHowie told this to a young girlwith an anxiety disorder.}
Until I was about 25 I didn’t really know what anxiety wasOr why/how/why my brain works the way it doesBut when I became unable to really handle life wellMy mom took me to my doctorAnd then I understood.And it doesn’t make things better instantly to knowAnd there are no magic pillsAnd some days/hours/weeks/minutes are hardStillKnowing is helpful.Acknowledging is important.
So from me - who is finally becoming more okay with who I am -I’m glad it was aired all over the TV.
From me - who for so long just thought it was normal to never feel okay -It’s important to hear again and again.
After a tough weekwhere who I am got in the way ofimportant thingswhen I heard thisI took a breath.
Making mistakes is okay.
So I can move forward from hereand Be Great.

One of the main reasons I watch America’s Got Talent -
besides it being a nice distraction while I ride my bike in the living room -
Is Howie Mandel.

{The other night
Howie told this to a young girl
with an anxiety disorder.}

Until I was about 25 I didn’t really know what anxiety was
Or why/how/why my brain works the way it does
But when I became unable to really handle life well
My mom took me to my doctor

And then I understood.
And it doesn’t make things better instantly to know
And there are no magic pills
And some days/hours/weeks/minutes are hard
Still

Knowing is helpful.
Acknowledging is important.

So from me - who is finally becoming more okay with who I am -
I’m glad it was aired all over the TV.

From me - who for so long just thought it was normal to never feel okay -
It’s important to hear again and again.

After a tough week
where who I am got in the way of
important things

when I heard this

I took a breath.

Making mistakes is okay.

So I can move forward
from here
and Be Great.

Filed under agt howie mandel anxiety its going to be okay begreat

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when the forecast has told you
for the past 2 days

"it’s gonna be hot"

and you look outside at
3:00 
and see that it’s raining

you get your running shoes on
and take this puppy for a run.

(so when you’re laying on the couch
watching the world cup, later,
you don’t feel like such
a slacker.)

a little perk.
lazy summer.

when the forecast has told you
for the past 2 days

"it’s gonna be hot"

and you look outside at
3:00 
and see that it’s raining

you get your running shoes on
and take this puppy for a run.

(so when you’re laying on the couch
watching the world cup, later,
you don’t feel like such
a slacker.)

a little perk.
lazy summer.

Filed under running rain summerrun run runningpuppy getoutside

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I love love love love-d this bookNot because I am ‘breaking up’or anythingdramatic
… not even because it’s arty{read the book, you’ll understand}
But because Min wrote this to Ed:"[it] made me, not sad but I guess melancholy, for a reason I couldn’t point to" on page two-eighty-six.
Because that is just like how my memoriesareof so many things.
And so it feels good to not beyou knowalone in that.

I love love love love-d this book

Not because I am ‘breaking up’
or anything
dramatic

… not even because it’s arty
{read the book, you’ll understand}

But because Min wrote this to Ed:
"[it] made me, not sad but I guess melancholy, for a reason I couldn’t point to" on page two-eighty-six.

Because that is just like how my memories
are
of so many things.

And so it feels good to not be
you know
alone in that.

Filed under books goodbook goodreads daniel handler notjustlemonysnickett breakingup read

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[Insert Photo Here]

You know those times
Where

An hour later you realize
I should’ve gotten a picture

But the picture is in your head
Like you snapped one / anyway

A week at home
With family
Old friends
New friends

The photos in my head
do more justice

Than the ones I forgot to take.

Filed under friends home family

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Sad Ice Cream

On most days
I have come to terms with
"Nut Intolerance."

It’s like a nut allergy
with a longer explanation.

No.  I won’t die.
But life will suck
for a while.

Today
I ventured out

Yay!
Seems safe enough

I had even glanced at the label
like always, in the store.

Not until I get home
I look closer

Oh…. what’s that?

Sad.

(and for all of you saying “coconut doesn’t count as a nut!” Well, for me it does.  Trust me, I know.  It’s related to a pistachio, or something close enough to ruin my days if I eat it.)

Filed under benandjerrys icecream sad nodessert noneformethanks sad icecream